sometimes i sing...

i like this song. and i got a glockenspiel, so i made some music...

Dance, Dance, Dance by Lykke Li 
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Covered By Me.

A Resolution.

To resolve is to deal with successfully {via webster dictionary}. I know, this is a stereotypical way of starting any piece of writing, but I wanted to know what it really meant to resolve in the context implied by a new years resolution.

I read a blog two days ago about how there is no significance in the fact that there is a new year. It argued that it is just like any other day and there was no need to stress out making resolutions we are just going to fail at, etc. It proceeded to quote Ben Gibbard lyrics like they were absolute truth. For a second it resonated with me, then it left a sour taste in my mouth. The reason we fail at our resolutions reminds us of the fall of man. depravity. the need for outside help.

I think it is important to have points in life that remind us to reflect: to reflect on the last year, and to see what we want to improve on in the future. For some people, this is the only time they take to reflect.

Today in church we were asked to make a commitment to being more devoted to God's word. The front of the church had a bunch of bread for us to go up and rip off a piece as a symbol of our devotion to allowing God's word abundantly fill us. Initially, I hated this idea and had no plan to go up and grab a piece of bread... In High School and Jr. High, every retreat I went on I was asked to make a commitment to do something, which I most often failed in. Thus, leaving me with a bad feeling when it comes to making an almost forced decisions... But then I got this spark of hope and had a cool train of thought. I am fixed on the Lord. Nothing will change that. I have confidence in saying that. I know I will end this year closer to the Lord than I am now because I know this is something God wants for me, and I want it enough to make the efforts toward that desire.

My Resolution for 2010 is to become a Christian Hedonist. To be sold out for delighting in the Lord.

My challenges foreseen: Singleness for the Spring {a completely single mindset- this has already been challenging} and Oman {a huge step out of the comfort zone}

Reflections of 2009:

God took me. Stretched me. Taught and is still teaching me what it means suffer and cling to Him. Challenged to be more discipline. Worked in my heart clarity in his design for my life. He continued to make me passionate for youth and music. He forced me to spend ten+ hours in silence and solitude, while fasting. He asked me to trust him and I'm doing my best at doing that. He challenged me to expect great things from him and reminded me of how much he loves giving good things to his children.

I am not who I was yesterday, and I am not who I am going to be tomorrow because God is at work in my heart. I will experience his new mercies every day.