no answers, just peace.

I'm done praying for answers.

I don't need to know answers.

But, I do need peace. This is where I have hope, in a peace that transcends all understanding. Sometimes God puts things in our lives for us not to know the answers to, but He still has a purpose. A beautiful, wonderful, personally designed purpose that he works together for good. Even if I mess up and do something bad -which is far too common- God will still work things together for good, just because He loves.

I pray that in any season, I experience God's peace. I pray that I experience it in the core of my being. I pray that I take my eyes off my human perspective on things and just rest in God's love. I pray that my life be a reflection of Christ to the highest regard. I pray that I live a life that is true to everything I profess. I pray that my thought life echo the thoughts of a person madly in LOVE with Christ.

I keep thinking that I would like to see a glimpse of 2010 Paige on November 29th and know the results of that with which I am waiting on. I told this to my roommate and she said she felt the same way one year ago and she is glad she did not get a glimpse because she would not be fully vindicated. With God's peace, I will not continue this thought.

Peace is one of the most beautiful gifts God has given us undeserving humans.

I don't need to know answers.

I had this half awake dream last night, sort of an out-of-body experience. I kept feeling my skin and my four blankets. As I was doing this, I decided that I must write a book called God Is Real. It was almost like I was experiencing general revelation in a half-awake state. I wanted others to experience God as I have, and I was reminded of this by the sensation of my blankets on my skin. One day I might write a book, and maybe it can be about knowing God is real through experiencing peace.